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Self-realization, the story of enlightenment

One of the concepts that I learned through my readings is the idea of self-realization, being the doorway to enlightenment. I had always thought of enlightenment being a realization of our infinite nature that is connected to all that is. I have always seen Jesus, Buddha and other Prophets as one and the same, incarnations of God, who realized their own divinity. While reading Midnights with the Mystic by Cheryl Simone and Sadhguru, my understanding of the concept grew.

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Our ability to experience self-realization, and even further to progress to enlightenment, is dependent on our experiences. I have never heard a story of a powerful figure who had not been through suffering. It is through these traumatic tribulations that humans seek deeper purpose and understanding. When we’ve hit a bottom, that is when the quest begins. Until you’ve hit the void within, you do not seek the light for healing.

The story of both Buddha and Jesus, are miraculously different, but they convey the same message. Jesus, came from a family with no significance, and I believe it was through his own ordeals that he came to realize his own divinity. It is my belief that the hardships of life, and his ability to overcome them, opened a portal into his godliness. Jesus is famous for saying that the kingdom of God is within you, which is him telling us that we are no different than he. Through the inner spiritual awakening he experienced, he came to realize his connection to source, the creator of life. Whether you believe that God is a primordial deity, the universe, or simply atoms, is a debate for another time.

Gautama Siddartha (Buddha), another significant figure who helped shape our world, came from a very different background then Jesus. He was born a prince of a powerful empire on the border of Nepal and India. His father Śuddhodana sought the advice of a group of eight Brahmins to predict his son’s future. Seven of the eight mystics of Hinduism told the king that his son would grow up to either be king of his empire, or a śramaṇa, which is one who seeks higher spiritual purpose. One of the seers, told the king his would become a Buddha. Knowing this, the king set forth to banish Gautama Siddartha (Buddha) from experiencing any suffering. His father surrounded him with women and other pleasures so that he may never leave his home.

Buddha lives this life until the age of 29, finally departing his home in search of saṃvega – the desire to escape the suffering of saṃsāra (the tedious wheel of life that has us running in circles within a mundane existence). There are many interpretations about how this came about, one that has drawn me in is the belief that angelic beings lured him out into the world. When he took to the roads, he realized how much suffering the general populace experienced. This journey outside of the palace was known as the four sights, the catalysts for his spiritual transformation: senescence (the consequence of aging), disease, death and asceticism (self-denial of wordily pleasures in pursuit of spirituality). Of the four sights, the final one was what Buddha truly was molded by when he began the quest for self-realization. Buddha’s leaving of the palace is known as The Great Departure. Over the next 6 years he journeyed from one city to the next, until finally finding a tree in Bodh Gaya – he meditated here for many days until reaching enlightenment (at the time known as Bodhi).

Enlightenment, or “Bodhi” is best defined as the process of spiritual awakening, where an individual realizes the collective consciousness that connects us all. This awakening is an indescribable connection between all things, an infinite energy or God, which connects us all. For me, it did not happen until 25 after many near death experiences and life altering run ins with the law. I had come from a life of privilege, and my ego would never have allowed me to believe as a mystic does.

In order for me to uncover my own purpose, I had to suffer as those with great knowledge had. I had become sick with disease, one that could not be cured. My life had turned upside down, everything that I had sought after, had lost its appeal. I did nothing for almost a year, suffering in silence and telling no one. One day I was provided with a hallucinogen by a friend, which I was scared to consume because of my own dark thoughts. I was desperate for answers as to why I was going through this sickness, why had God forsaken and cursed me?

The story of my spiritual awakening is the topic of my next post, and not the aim of this article. However, the self-realization that followed, changed everything about me. I was no longer so caught up in what others thought of me, this disease had made me so sad for so long, that I no longer feared judgement. I told my friends of my situation fearlessly, and they all supported me. That is not to say I was not still lost about the circumstances, but I felt that it had all happened for a reason. Without this illness, I would never have fallen to such a low that I was willing to believe in something more than what I could see. Up until that point, my belief in anything mystical was nonexistent. Today, I believe in so many things that I couldn’t capture it all in one blog post.

This willingness to seek answers from outside sources, was truly an invitation for me to connect with my higher self. The spirit within all of us, the higher voice we can choose to listen to when we are at a crossroad. I had ignored that voice for so long, that I thought it was my erratic mind. This higher self, our spiritual nature – maybe the holy spirit that Jesus spoke of, was a lantern that sparked a fire where there was no light. I pulled my life together after this experience, I began to find pleasure in life again.

I was on a quest for more meaning, more depth, a reason for why we are here. I spent days, months and eventually years reading the stories of other people who shared similar stories or saw some of the things I saw during my visionary awakening. The more I sought answers, the more I realized others had seen the things I had, and the more credibility I gave to my psychedelic inner voyage. These archetypes of human consciousness are told in every myth through-out every culture in the world.

Religion and spirituality are honestly much more similar than people realize, the difference is where we give our faith. The spiritual practitioner believes that his soul is connected to the collective consciousness and that he is responsible for his own destiny. The religiously inclined often give their power to a deity who oversees all of life. There is nothing wrong with either belief, but for me self-realization was beginning to believe that my destiny, was what I chose to make it.

Understanding Rebirth & The Ouroboros

“If a man follows a certain direction in this world, he will be led further in the same direction when he departs this world.”

The struggles we endure, the repeated life lessons that we survive, the ill thoughts about ourselves that we ignore and don’t fix. This is it. This is the war of the lower and higher self. The galactic Law of One speaks that our choice as initiates in this soul cycle Is to choose between: Service to self or service to others.

This process has many names, one of which is known as the wheel of samsara. The ouroboros, the serpent eating its tail, represents the same creation process of life and death. Part of our yoga mat design was created with this awareness, so that we can visualize soul ascension and greater meaning behind the mundane. 

The methodology for living life that you choose, will determine the frequency of your life experience. In order to dial into higher vibrations we have to be willing to put others first. Just as Buddha and Jesus agreed. These emanations of the divine source speak about the wholesomeness of community and not letting things get to you.

If you are stuck in service to self; you aren’t doing anything for others. Your soul contract starts to darken, and you slowly shift to service to self being all you care about, and your relationships, family life and any other source of emotional connection will dwindle, if you can’t learn to put others before yourself. This is the Dharma we are told by the Hindus and Buddhists. The soul cycles through the next emanation until it has fully committed to service to others. That is the ascension quest, release those who do not care as you do, and wish them great success #yogi#yoga#enlightenment#spirit#mystic#mysticism#soul#purpose#dharma#karma#lawofone#ouroboros#samsara

Unlocking the Power of Low FODMAP Foods: A Guide to Better Digestive Health and Immune Function

The low FODMAP diet has gained attention as a potential solution for individuals struggling with digestive issues such as irritable bowel syndrome (IBS) and other gastrointestinal disorders. Not only does this diet help alleviate symptoms like bloating, gas, and stomach pain, but it also holds potential benefits for boosting immune function and overall well-being. Changing my diet around this system has made huge changes for my gastrointestinal health.

What are FODMAPs, you may ask? FODMAPs are a group of fermentable carbohydrates found in many common foods, including certain fruits, vegetables, grains, dairy products, and sweeteners. For some individuals, these FODMAPs can trigger digestive discomfort and exacerbate existing gut issues, leading to inflammation and a weakened immune system.

By following a low FODMAP diet, individuals can reduce their intake of these troublesome carbohydrates and provide their gut with much-needed relief. Not only does this approach help manage digestive symptoms, but it can also lead to a healthier, more balanced gut microbiome, which plays a crucial role in immune function and overall health.

Here are some tips for incorporating low FODMAP foods into your diet to support better digestive health and immune function:

1. Focus on Whole, Unprocessed Foods: Lean proteins, low FODMAP vegetables (like spinach, carrots, and zucchini), and gluten-free grains (such as rice and quinoa) are great choices for building a low FODMAP meal plan. Avoid processed foods that may contain hidden FODMAPs, like certain sauces and condiments.

2. Experiment with Low FODMAP Substitutions: While certain high FODMAP foods are off-limits, there are plenty of delicious low FODMAP alternatives available. For example, swap out garlic and onion for garlic-infused oil or green onion tops. Explore different herbs and spices to add flavor without the FODMAPs.

3. Keep a Food Diary: Tracking your meals and symptoms can help you identify trigger foods and make adjustments to your diet as needed. This can be especially helpful in pinpointing foods that may be contributing to digestive issues or immune system imbalances.

4. Reintroduce FODMAPs Carefully: Once you have established a routine of low FODMAP eating and your symptoms have improved, you can begin reintroducing higher FODMAP foods one at a time to gauge your tolerance levels. This can help you expand your diet while still managing your digestive health.

By taking a thoughtful approach to your diet and incorporating low FODMAP foods, you can support your digestive system, balance your gut microbiome, and potentially enhance your immune function. Discovering the power of low FODMAP foods may be the key to unlocking better digestive health and a stronger immune system for a happier and healthier you.

Our innate desire to find meaning is both a blessing and a curse

Our innate desire to find meaning behind everything is both a blessing and a curse. The key to happiness is learning to live in the present, so why are we so enthralled with the idea of greater meaning?

If we are to truly be happy, maybe it’s best to let events happen fluidly. Pondering the what if’s, and should haves, is the easiest way to get lost in your mind.
When we are lost in our mind, then fear and anxiety approach and the confusion only deepens. My advice is to worry less about the meaning behind something and focus on your present intentions and emotions.
Focus on what you can do now to make your soul happy. Take that step into yoga class or change your diet. Whatever it is you know you need to do, do it. Don’t worry about the details, or the meaning, or the synchronicities.
If you believe in synchronicity, you know that everything is unfolding as it should. Trust in the cosmic plan laid out before you, and you will have much less fear and anxiety in your life. Don’t worry about the “why”, worry about what you should do right “now.”

How to have a Mystical 2024

One of the challenges that all of us face in the New Year, is living up to our own expectations. Most of us will set more goals than we can handle, and when we become overwhelmed, we end up not doing any of them. I call this process, decision fatigue. We want to go to the gym every day, do an hour of yoga, an hour of meditation, study a new subject, learn a language or instrument, deepen our relationships with partners, friends and family. This is just a short list to show you what I mean. In the face of so much growth, many of us falter. Not because we don’t want to achieve our goals, but because they aren’t structured and we have other obligations.

So how can you make this year different than the last? Maybe you went to the gym for all of January last year, and stopped shortly after; or maybe you did your meditation for the first half of the year, but work got busy and it fell off. My suggestion is this, pick one goal. One monumental change that you can make, that will change your life for the better. Instead of saying I’m going to make these 10 changes, promise yourself to make ONE. For me, it’s to spend more time expanding my knowledge.

I have chosen not to choose any specifics, because when we lose steam we lose our drive. I have written down and placed in my wallet “Do what you fear, and fear ceases.” What does this have to do with wisdom? Everything. For me, the lack of progress I see in my physical or mental health, always stems from a fear of failure. The actions I have taken in the past, lead me to here, which is great, but I could have done a lot more, faster. Most of us deal with this mental warfare, we can’t all be gold medal Olympians who do the maximum action every day. We also can’t beat ourselves up about what-ifs or what could have been. Anxiety, is living in the past or the future. In order to beat our inner bitch, we have to take action now.

So wisdom, in the sense I intend to manifest, is the action of doing it today. So if I tell my partner that I will work on a project tomorrow, I’ve asked her to tell me to do it now. You’ll be amazed how great it feels when you tackle something now, instead of dreading doing it later. When you appreciate the little wins, the big wins come faster. You start building drive, momentum, and a belief you can do it.

One thing I hate doing at work, is making phone calls to CPAs. I have a terrible fear of rejection, which has been such a challenge for me that I talk about it to my therapist. I am blessed to work with a saint who has a PhD in Energy Trauma, the first person to identify as a Mystic when I asked him about his beliefs almost 10 years ago. At the time the word meant little to me, but after taking an 8-year hiatus from him, I felt compelled to reach out and work on myself with my first spiritual mentor.

When I was talking to Dr. Lane about my anxiety about making calls, he asked me to visualize the emotions I felt. After a little guidance, I came to visualize a giant red ball, which I believe was the weight of my anxiety. After doing some acupressure on my chest meridians, he asked me to visualize another object, and the color associated with it. I came to see a yellow energy, which eventually formed into a triangle. Then I began to see the red ball, on top of the yellow triangle. He asked if I saw any cracks on the triangle, and I did not. Then he asked me to thank the red ball, for protecting me from failure. He asked if I felt any less anxiety after this, and I didn’t. What really helped, was changing my frame of thought. When I came to see the red orb, as this inner weakness, and that the holy grail laid on the other side of my fear, I started to feel less strain on my body. He then instructed me to visualize the red ball, moving off the yellow triangle.

As I did this, I began to feel the weight of my anxiety, change forms. Instead of seeing this fear as something that was crippling me, I saw it as a challenge to grow in my career. Everything I wanted in life, was held back by this red ball’s weight. So now, every time I make a phone call, I have a visualization that I look at of this process. I made this in photoshop, and hopefully it helps you. This wisdom of knowing that if I do the things today, that I have been putting off until tomorrow, I will feel infinitely better about my life.

Who were you before your friends, family and society molded your mind?

What would you have done with your life, if the pressures of success and recognition hadn’t influenced your dreams?

We all want certain things out of life at a very young age. Most of us want to find love, maintain our friendships, become more than what we are, and ultimately make those around us proud. I know for myself, I always wanted to write fantasy novels. I grew up reading Lord of the Rings and Forgotten Realms books as if it were my only focus in life. Slowly, the awkwardness of youth began to take its toll and I started to read nerdy books in private. That’s not to say I wouldn’t admit to my tastes if asked, but it wasn’t cool to be a fantasy nerd back then. While our friends usually are a beacon of strength, they can also take away your passions without you realizing it. Watching anime wasn’t cool, so only a handful of friends got to know that part of me. We begin to compartmentalize the aspects of ourselves that we don’t want to be judged for. We begin reading non-fiction works that were recommended to us by our teachers. We choose to learn about things relevant to our life and our peers, losing our fanaticism for our true interests.

The reason for this post, is that those on the spiritual path are notoriously gifted at this. We may believe in angels, aliens, inner earth, but to speak of our realizations to those who do not believe as we do, is seen as heretical. It’s human nature to avoid discomfort, especially when it is related to the people closest to us. Now, not everyone is ready to have a conversation on the implications of the flower of life being located all over the earth, building the metaphysical blocks of our universe. This is supposed to be so, there is a reason we all make new friendships as we grow in our spiritual quest. As our energetic vibration begins to raise our consciousness, our ability to believe in the esoteric magnifies. 

The more you pursue sacred wisdom, the further away you will drift from those in denial. The universe does this in order to help us, we need different relationships to better different aspects of our lives. You may have a friend who is your confidant, while another is your esoteric peer. One helps you master the seen reality, while the other helps your spirit ponder the unseen. As long as you learn to appreciate your friends for their role in your life, you can maintain those relationships without expectation. 

Budda-nature & the Buddha

The term Buddha, means “one who woke up.” Siddhartha Gautama, who is known as the original incarnation of the Buddha, was the original soul who has created the foundation for Buddhism. Later on, he became known as Shakyamuni Buddha, after achieving his enlightenment. Shakyamuni, is Sanskrit for “Sage of the Shakya.” Shakya, being the city-state where he was born prince. A core belief taught by Buddha, was the concept of a dharma body. The dharma body is a living reality that we can achieve through cultivating our Buddha-nature, which is to live as the original Buddha did. This means to live with a spirit of compassion and care for those around you.

Buddha-nature is also known as “buddha-datu” in its original form. As Shunryu Suzuki Roshi once said “It is wisdom which is seeking wisdom.” While many people believe the desire for Zen is to relieve us of internal suffering, Buddha-nature explains that we are always in a state of positive nirvana if we reach for it. This is a foundational principle of Mayana Buddhism. Through this belief, we begin to see the divinity within and embrace the raw nature of the human experience. 

The deeper the suffering, the greater the soul

The deeper the suffering, the greater the soul. Most people are not aware of their soul self until later in life. The trials and tribulations we undergo are what develop our persona. The easier life is, the more you take this experience for granted.

It’s through experiencing loss, betrayal, abandonment, fear and even spite that we grow to forgive. Whether our pain is self-directed or external, forgiving ourselves and those who have hurt us; is how we begin to heal the wounds. In order to forgive, we have to accept our circumstances and move on.

When you truly forgive, the inner angst will dwindle and you’ll feel the emotional rebirth in your life. Gratitude will follow. As your vibration shifts from negative thought patterns, you will begin to attract better outcomes and experience less suffering. Your energy is either magnetic or repelling, so make a conscious effort to elevate.

Achieve happiness by releasing the weight of expectations.

When we drop our preconceived notions of who we should be, we release the strain of being alive. If you free yourself from the mundane struggle of getting ahead, you will be infinitely happier. Choose to see yourself as a river, flowing through the human experience. Sometimes the rapids pick up, and sometimes they are nonexistent. Don’t try to compete with your friends and peers, for their path is different than yours. 

We all travel this journey at a different pace, enjoy yourself because that is really all that matters. If you value your own happiness above all else, nothing will matter. It is through understanding happiness, that we achieve the flow state. Life will pass you by if you focus on what you don’t have, rather than what you do. 

This isn’t to say don’t be ambitious, strive for greatness. If you fall, pick yourself back up. You have to be your own bootstraps in life, because no one else will do it for you. Cherish those who support you and remove those who do not. Life is too short to spend it being brought down by those closest to you. If you do not tend your garden, you will find that there are snakes.

Overcoming mental complacency

It takes immense courage to break out of our mental ruts. It becomes second nature for us to become complacent; life becomes a cycle of eat, sleep, work and repeat. The shadow self takes a hold and we idle until we build the courage to do something about it. If you are stuck in stagnation, do something that challenges you in a new way.



Climb the mountain, kayak the river, jump off the plane (with a parachute) whatever it is you are scared of, a new life is on the other side. When we overcome our fears, we tell the universe that we are ready to move beyond that lesson.


Those things no longer scare us, and we progress to the next step in our personal development. Personal power is the ability to do what you want to do, regardless of the obstacles holding you back. Once you surmount a mind block, it becomes a muscle you exercise. It gets easier with each attempt. Prevail over your mind and you can exceed any limitations you place on yourself.